Only our pairing unbars the mind-trap,
We savor, together, the magma of a perverted star.
Torrents of lusty weather lay the marriage-bed down,
And we are lost to our pairing until there is but dew.
poem by Moises Ramirez, May Contributor
Got my ass eaten for the very
First time, then I went to the
Frick collection to look
At paintings by old Dutch masters.
Had a strange dream. My aunt was premiering a film (she doesn’t make films, nor should you) strange dream yeah premiering a film a premier somewhere secret away from all the people who have ever tried to kiss me. Very successful. Except for she must’ve evaded security. Well, she told me she was getting married, so maybe she also told them that. Her fiancé opened the door and then closed it very fast. She told me about the basketball court outside and how im going to win. She tried to kiss me. Her fi-awn-say opened the door and then closed it very fast. FAST. She said it had become a *quote,unquote* “thing”
Fi-Awn-Say. Just saying the word. I’m going to win, she says.
She had six cats and I found them in the attic and tried to carry them all at the same time down three flights of stairs so I could show her that I had all the cats. Dream cats! She was waiting for me at the bottom of the stairs, but we didn't hang out. I had an uncle who thought that was really funny. You’re going to love this book. In a basketball court where the floor is slanted, I thought: I'm so close to astral projecting I’m so close to astral projecting I’m so close to astral projecting. Only to fall, dropping all the cats, a dream released.
A tragic figure: forever the kind of person to carry six cats down the stairs and to lose all the cats.
That night, in the “real” world, I spent all my tickets at the boardwalk arcade on a disco ball.
There was a red moon on the beach.
/100 texts/
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She waited a month.
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I waited a month and a half.
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She waited two months.
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She waited four months and a half
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She waited eight months.
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She waited ten months.
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She waited a year and 3 months.
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I waited a year and six months.
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She waited a year and eight moths.
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I waited a year and eight months and a half.
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She waited two years.
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I waited two years and a month,
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She waited two years and a month and a half.
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I waited three years.
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She waited three years and a half.
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I waited four years and a half.
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She waited five years.
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She waited ten years.
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She waited twenty four years,
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She waited fifty years.
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She waited a thousand years.
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I waited ten thousand,
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I waited eight hundred ninety-five thousand years,
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I waited one hundred sixty-five million five hundred ninety four thousand years and a half,
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She waited two hundred thirty five million years one hundred and forty four thousand years and a half,
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I waited one trillion nine hundred and twenty nine billion eight hundred and fourteen million three hundred and forty two thousand years,
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She waited seven hundred ninety-nine trillion one hundred fourteen billion eight hundred sixty-five million nine hundred and sixteen thousand years,
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After the ninety-sixth text,
She didn’t respond.
I waited googolplex years. Then, I texted her again.
After the ninety-seventh text,
She waited googolplex years and a half.
After the ninety-eighth text,
I waited for her at the beginning of eternity.
After the ninety-ninth text
She waited for me at the limits of infinity.
After the hundredth text, we agreed to meet up.
In person, she said that she wanted me to choke her
Until her eyes popped out during sex.
But I could tell she wasn’t actually turned on.
Eventually, the truth emerged, once I asked her straight.
“It’s just . . . well, you look a bit older than I’d pictured.”
Shout out to Wes_Civilz.
Love is the new God.
When classification for God is
everyone agrees to believe in it
it is the underpinning n basis for the law
if you don’t believe in it you are bad, possibly exiled
taken on faith
mysterious and faraway
last shelter against brutal reasoning and cold universe
all-powerful and all-knowing
unpredictable and cruel, but all for mysterious “best” ends
floating in the air
handsome jolly guy with beard in long green robe
I am sounding the alarms not the bells!
Ha ha ha ha I like your competence
I could have cowabungaed on your wave
The apocalyptic impact of your personality,
The sapphire meteor nosedive that reshaped the world.
I saw you staring at the window in the blue night.
Deranged, you were out of range,
A week later you were dead from overdose.
The screams of the victims of the future.
I almost couldn’t sleep.
Almost. Eventually the future becomes
As meaningless as house noises (as foreboding)
My comrade, if you are nervous before the nightly gangbang,
Remember, the hole is wide and the soul its very narrow,
I’m sure we can all fit.
Big I turning in behind the window
But that other one still haunts me now,
Quartet of raindrops bashing on their instruments,
There is a very important war going on.
We each have our own blankets.
She is my other,
We have only ourselves to play tricks on.
For example:
I pull my sweatshirt over my head
But she taped a grater on the neck hole,
Sharp,
Just a little pressure
And . . .
Swhip
Like orange slices
Sweating and pulping and pithy
And made of these tiny bulbous vessels
The rose-of-the-vein, man
We lived happily and elegantly in our little apartment.
The time between raindrops drew longer and longer,
Like popcorn at the end of its cycle. Eventually
We can hear a couple outside,
Screaming at each other.